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Wednesday, July 23, 2008 ( 3:43 AM )
It's not that I'm angry or pissed. It's just that you guys added in to my wound. Saying, "So? I don't care." can really hurt a person. It's already hard trying to fit into that place. You can play matchmaker, i don't care. You can think whatever you want, i don't care. The only thing i used to pray for is that you'll talk to me. But now i think this opinion has changed. It hurts so much i don't even want to see you. Just those memories are enough. I don't blame you. You didn't know i was already irritated. Maybe i should just continue living like this. I know you guys hate me. I don't' care anymore. No one does.
Hope doesn't exist. It's just wishful thinking.
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008 ( 4:24 AM )
HEYAS:>
Wah seh.... got damn lot of homework everyday lahs. Then i got 5 ulcers in my mouth plus a damn bad throat. Some heartless people curse me say it's hand foot mouth disease. Choy ah! Anyway, been obsessed with another anime. Haha. 'Nana'. I watch cause got nothing else to watch liao. Bleach and Naruto load so slow... Prince of tennis even slower. Like the producers die liao. Like 1 year-load 2 videos?!? Anyway, oral and prelims are coming. Damn scary lehs. Die lahs die lahs...
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Wednesday, July 9, 2008 ( 4:24 AM )
Tiayou no uta
a.k.a 'Song of the sun'. It's a movie i just watched on youtube. Surprisingly, i cried. Haha. Ok, yes. I DO cry in shows. I see anime also cry. Haha. But this is a damn nice movie. So sad some more... Go to youtube and watch!!! Recommended. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBfIUaF4SEI this is the link for part one. A MUST WATCH thing.
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Thursday, July 3, 2008 ( 4:30 AM )
Saturday- school carnival. Guess it's gonna suck. Every one's on different duty time as me. Zzzz.... I'm damn tired. This whole week like torture week like that. Everyday got one whole big pile of homework..... God....
I still can't make the decision. Is it only because of being with THEM that i want to change or is it another reason? I still can't get it. I keep telling myself to believe but i end up turning to god. Is it bad? I just need someone to tell me what to be. I mean, i listen to christian songs, pray, and everything else but, my parents are.....
Lead me to the cross, where your love poured out....
I feel guilty for that. Just need to admit. I think i'd better not go for band anymore. The old atmosphere is no longer there. Just scolding or seeing angry and irritated faces. I don't want to go there for refuge anymore. I used to look forward to it every week but now, it's changed. I'd rather go forward without it. It's now just a place where music is made and anger grows. Maybe i'm just emo-ing. Just let me be. Don't read my crap.